I found this post in my drafts…
I have no recollection of how it’s supposed to end, but I’m going to go ahead and publish it so that I can write Drupdate #3. I actually messed up and didn’t make note of when I began this post, but considering the content, it was late January or early February, 2017.
This is post number two in the Drupdate series, where I check in with myself on how I’m doing on meds, of if I’m even taking them.
I don’t normally take the meds on weekends. That’s part personal decision, part doctor approved. We agreed I wouldn’t take it on Saturdays, I decided not to take it on Sundays.
I also decided not to take it on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday this week. I did take them today, Thursday. Why?
I’ll work backwards to see if I can make sense of it myself.
I took it this morning because I only have a short time to be at my desk and accomplish a lot of things, and I wanted to make the most of it, assuming that the meds help me make the most of my day– the jury is still out on that one.
I hadn’t been ‘using’ on the past two Thursdays because I was running a program and I, ironically, wanted to stay focused. I didn’t want to have one of these jittery moments in the middle of giving a lesson. Sometimes, and again I’m not 100% sure it’s because of the drug, I get this feeling in the middle of the day, seemingly randomly, that I’ve drunk way too much caffeine– even when I’ve only had my usual morning cup.
But today I felt pretty relaxed about the program and I didn’t think that the jitters would throw me off if they did come.
Yesterday was funny. I