When I last saw my shrink, she was apparently pregnant. She did not bring up the subject and so, according to protocol, I did not bring it up either, though her condition was quite… pronounced.
Well, in addition to ADD-dar, I apparently have preg-dar, because this week I got a call from the hospital informing me that I’d been transferred to a new doctor due to my own psychiatrist going on maternity leave. I felt it safe to enquire if she’d actually had the baby yet– she hadn’t– and asked the caller to pass on my congratulations for when the time comes.
What my radar didn’t pick up on until just now was that her pregnancy was a graceful solution to a conundrum I’ve been avoiding.
For a while now, I’ve been debating doing a shrink-swap. Although I am fond of my psychiatrist, I wasnt’ sure she was the best one for my specific needs. I want someone with experience in my specific area — Adult ADD– and I felt, at times, like she was winging it a little bit. I mean, I’ve been on this road towards intentional correction for close to two years now — or more? But I am still not 100% sure of my diagnosis.
The appointment they offered me with the new doctor is still two months away. I guess that lack of availability is one strike against her. Still, I’m in no rush. I haven’t been updating, but I also haven’t really been taking my medication for over a month now. I took it today for the first time in ages. The only definite effect was hunger pangs at about 4:00.
If I am brave and strong and play my cards right then this can turn out very well. I tried e-stalking the new doctor, but there isn’t too much online about her, at least on the first couple of google pages. I’d asked the administrator about her when she called to set up the appointment. I learned that she’s not new; she’s been around for many years. Well, that’s something. And if I realize that she is not for me, I will be bolder this time and ask to be re-referred. I will.
P.S. If you scroll up and down over the square in the image on top of this post, you’ll see why the two doctor characters are doing the twist.